Right Before Thanksgiving

My mom yelled at my dad for not listing good and lieing as well. I over heard them yelling and I hated it for some reason. My mom told my dad to leave and never come back. Also she told me to go find a job. Well right now most of the places are closed right now. So I am at the library writing this blog. I don't think I should go back home just yet. I want her to calm down for the time being. When I called the Crisis hotline a few months ago the guy told me to just stay away from mom for a few minuets to an hour. The reason for that fight was for the same thing not finding a job. When my parents where fighitng I sorta found something sharp and started to cut myself. For some that ain't a good idea. For me it's a way of relieaving myself of any pain.

Part 2 of Weekend

Hi again everyone!! Just an update from my Friday. Just a few minuets ago I got out of the house because my Mom threw me out because she wants me to find a job. She thinks that my paper route ain't enough to her standards. Well I didn't want to hurt her because the paper route that I am currently on is doing pretty well for me. I just want her to know that I have friends on this route who can help me in any way possible. The ladies at the County Commissioner's office can help me talk to the Commissioners about what's going on, the people at Center for Community Resources can help me talk to someone and get me into therapy. Also there are many more places for me to go and  people for me to get help from. Like I said before she yelled at me for not finding a job. Please pray for me people.

Nice Weekend

Hi everyone!! I hope you all have a nice weekend planned like I do. Today I am going to do my paper route and then come home to either watch a movie or take a nap till 5pm which the community dinner starts (I get there early). Tomorrow I will be doing my paper route early since there is no lunch at the Salvation Army. My Dad will be helping me. Then I am going to Merge Christian Community at 6pm tomorrow nite.
I hate it when my Mother yells at me for no good reason. I think earlier this week she yelled at me for no good reason (that I can think of right now). Also I have no TV for at least a month because I didn't clean my room the WAY MY MOM WANTS IT TO BE. So that's why she probably yelled at me. Well I will write more later if need be.

It Has Happend Again!!

I just want to tell everyone that my Mom has yelled at me. It happend on Monday night. I was helping her get to her tubing (nasal canula) by getting the charger to her laptop off it. So she started to freak out on me. I don't know why? So my Mom yelled at my Dad and I and she said he was on my side. Well, wasn't so she got slammed by my Father. Whoops!!! LOL I know my Dad didn't mean too but she deserved what she had gotten.

She hadn't been to church for over a year close to two. Please pray for her. The only people out of our family is my Dad and I. So also please pray for us as well. If you are wondering what denomination we are my Dad and I are Baptists.

News Past Few Days

Not that long ago I got an email saying one of the people I know was in a serious car accident on Route 8 South (in Butler, PA). From what the lady heard around 1:45 this morning they considered her to be brain dead. She was the Main Street Manager for Butler Downtown (www.butlerdowntown.org). Last time I saw her was Wednesday with another committee member and Chief of City Police. I will update you all about this subject.

Yesterday before 1:30 am my Mom was complaining of a bug (cocroach) in her right ear. So the people in the ER took the rear end out then later on she had an appointment so they took out the rest of it. So my Mom is bug free!!!

I am quiting my second paper route so my last day on that one is Friday, October 14th.

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Just to let you know what is going on I threw up at the church dinner last night because the heat got to me. Yep, the heat got to me when I did my second paper route.

Right now I am listing to a song by Nick Pitera. It's called "The Edge of Glory". Of course it's a great song. He's a good singer. I am at the library right now because my Mom is being a bitch again.

Today I have to weight myself because I am on "The Biggest Loser" mode. Last Friday I weighed in at 211 and my begging weight is 212. I just want to know what my weight is because I want to go in the US Army. I have to be 170 and now you know how much I have to lose.

Good Day

The reason that today is a good day is that right now I am alone at home. Currently I am at the library doing somethings on the computer. Then I don't know what to do when I get back home. Who know's?? I like to write because it relieves my tension from things that are going on around me.

For instance; on Monday, my Mom yelled at my Dad and I for no reason. She usually does that from time to time when she doesn't have any cigarettes. Well, I better go and see what happend back at home.

Yelling Is Her Best Thing :)

Right now I think that yelling is my Mom's best thing ever. Just a few minuets ago my Mother had just yelled at my Dad for not finding a job and for just going to school. My Dad told her that going to school will get him out of the house, at least for a few hours a day for the whole week. I don't mind my Dad going to school to persue something.

It's hard that my Mom yells at us daily. Also that it's hard just to do homework or other work around the house when she is just up Dad's and my butts. Currently I have symptoms of depression but I have not actually got diagnosed. It's all because of my Mom. If anyone knows my Mom she goes to church weekly. Since we moved to the east side in May of 2010 she only went three times. From what I heard from her that the perfume that the women wear makes her gag.

Come on, be real for one moment here. I don't gag when there is a strong oder in the room (if some one farted I start too).

Sometimes I cut my wrists when the arguments between my parents get heated.

New Year.... Troubling Times

I am starting off this year on the wrong foot. First off, my Mom yells at me for having a beer on New Year's Eve. It's not my falt that our downstairs neighbors gave me a 24 ounce can of Steel Reserves. It was a nice late birthday present. For thoes who don't know my age, I turned 21 on December 28th.

Ever since I could remember my Mom would yell at me for not doing what SHE WANTED. She is ruining my father's life as well as mine. Currently my father and I are starting back to college on January 18th. I have to re arrange my schedule to make myself take two classes and not three (all classes that I have to take must be in the classroom no online ones).

I just hate my Mom right now because she is being a rude person. Awhile back when my parents had a fight I had to butt in and stop it because it was making me stressed out. My Mom told me to never talk to her like the way I did. So I had to help my dad fix the box of movies and mom got close to me and I freaked out because I'm closterphobic.

I hate it when people get close to me in a small place because I will tell them to move.

Current Stats

Currently I am on academic suspention from school. I will find out tomorrow if I will take my classes on January 18th. My Dad is taking some classes too.

I hope I will be in classes so I can boost my numbers. I will let you know if I am back in the swing of things.

Keep a look on an update.